It Was Never That Complicated…You Simply Didn’t Want To Make An Effort

But nonetheless, they were just words because before I knew it, your other personality would take over and you would become someone else. Someone who goes AWOL, forgets to call or text for a few days in a row. Someone who all of a sudden hasn’t got time for me. Someone who had no problem in belittling me just so he could rise above me. Somebody so selfish and mean. Somebody I am not quite sure I know.

I believe in love that accepts all the good and the bad sides of somebody, but you were too much at times. Still, I couldn’t help loving you. I couldn’t stop caring. I couldn’t quit letting you back in every time you decided to go. I just figured we have to have good days and bad ones, that not everything needs to be sunshine and rainbows all the time, but somehow it was mostly bad with storms which never seemed to end.

I admire myself for putting up with your indecisiveness for so long. I am also ashamed and full of regret for allowing you to stay that long because the damage was so much greater for it. I should have known that regardless of everything else that was supposedly coming between us, your indecision was a decision.