Instead Of Keeping Her Safe, You Were The One Who Broke Her

When a woman gives you her heart, she does it in good faith. When a woman gives you her heart, she does it counting on you to be a noble knight who’ll keep her heart safe. With her heart in your hands, you have all the power over her.

She gave you her heart with a knot in her throat as if she was begging you with her eyes to keep it safe. She was scared to do it and yet she did it anyway. She trusted you. She went against everything she ever believed and she told herself: “Your past has taught you better, but perhaps this time things will be different.”

Instead of proving your worth to her, you did exactly the opposite. Instead of doing things differently than all the others before you, you were even worse than them! You were the worst tormentor of them all. The only thing you did was prove to her that she shouldn’t have trusted you.

You were, by far, one of the most selfish men she’s had a chance to encounter in her life. You took ‘taking without giving anything in return’ to a whole new level. If you could, you’d take her soul, too. That’s how much of a parasite you are. She gave you so much of herself that she has nothing left.

She was always there for you and you were never there for her. How much does that suck, do you know? Well, you might not know, but she does. Because you’ve left her alone to fight all her battles, to swim alone when all her ships have sunk, to unmess all the mess you’ve created in her head. She was the one who dealt with it all. If she remembered to use her head instead of her heart, she’d see that she didn’t really need you in her life because she was more alone when she was with you than she ever was in her life.

And your emotional blackmail? Well you were the master of that game. The moment she’d start thinking for herself, you’d play the heart game, and you’d do something or say something to make her shut her thoughts and start listening to her heart. You knew how kind she was. You knew that she’d do anything for the people she loves. You know she’d put you first, that you always come before her.

Whenever she felt like saying ‘no’ to you, whenever she’d show the smallest amount of determination to stand up to you, you’d do some trick to turn her ‘no’ into a ‘yes’. And she couldn’t fight you because she was not the kind of the person who’d win in those manipulation games. She was always too pure for that. That’s why she kept pulling the shorter end of the straw when it came to saying ‘no’ to you.

You always came first. There is no doubt in this one. You always put yourself first and the worst part is, whatever she gave you, it was never enough. You kept asking for more and more. You kept expecting from her to do even the impossible for you and you didn’t bother even lifting a finger for her.

Each day she loved you more and tried even more just for you. She did it hoping that her love would change you. She hoped that a small piece of her love will find the way to your heart and warm it up. She hoped she’d awaken in you that love she was feeling. But love is not something you understand. If she gave you a taste of your own medicine, perhaps you could find a common language. But she never knew how to be a jerk towards people even if they weren’t good to her.

You know what hurts the most in life? When you give your all to someone and get nothing in return. When the same person who should be the wind to your wings ends up being the same person who breaks your wings. When the person who should keep you safe makes you doubt your worth, question where you stand with them. When the person who should guard your heart turns out to be the one who breaks it.

You should’ve kept her safe, but you broke her. You deserve to have her hate you, but she can’t bring herself to do that.

The ugliest part is, this woman still loves you. She still has love left for you in the shattered pieces of her heart that you broke. It’s just the way she is. And she’d probably be the only one to run to save you if you ever shouted for help.

But she knows better than to waste any more of her time on you. She knows better than to expect anything from you. She knows better than to hope you’ll change. She’s done fooling herself.

If you only cared for her as much as you cared for yourself, you two would have made it. If you weren’t as selfish as you are, you could’ve gone for the moon and the stars, and you could’ve had it all. And now, you’ve both lost.