I Want You Back But I’m Smart Enough To Know That’s A Bad Idea

You’re coming along with the exact story my heart needs in order to forgive you. You’re telling me all I want to hear. You’re promising me all the things I so desperately want to believe in. But my mind won’t have it. You’re still the same man who took me for granted. You’re the same man who broke my heart day after day. You lied to me. You manipulated me. You were the biggest parasite because you fed off of my love for so long. But enough is enough. It’s time to stop caring about someone who doesn’t care about me.

I’m not gonna lie, I have a hard time picturing my future without you.

I’ve always been the one who cared more in our relationship and I was the first one to say how I could easily picture myself with you for the rest of our lives. I want you there. I love you. You’re everything I’ve ever wanted. Well, you are in theory. But the way you made me feel and still make me feel is not something I want for the rest of my life. I don’t want to spend my life in agony.

I had so many plans for us, I pictured us being happy together and loving and cherishing each other and never letting go but you erased this fairy tale from my life so easily. So, I’ll just have to gradually overcome this fear of losing you.

When I needed just one reason to stay, you gave me a million reasons to walk away.

You were so persistent in bringing me down and constantly trying to make me feel like I was not good enough. Everything you did made me question my worth, your love and us together. My love is so big for you that despite all of this I needed just one small effort, this one little thing to see you actually gave a damn about me to stay. Instead, I got one too many reasons to walk away.

Regardless of how much it hurts, regardless of how much I love you, getting back with you would make no sense.