I Want You Back But I’m Smart Enough To Know That’s A Bad Idea

I want to believe you’re sorry for the hell you’ve put me through.

I wish all the words of regret that came out of your mouth were true. I wish you truly did regret the hell you orchestrated in my life, that you’re sorry for hurting my feelings, that you regret taking me for granted and using me and that you’d never do anything like that ever again.

But I’ve opened my eyes.

You made me open my eyes. Thanks to your actions, I have them wide open now. What did you think, that I’d endure all the pain you put me through till the end of my life? That I’d be okay with crying myself to sleep every night just because I love you? That I’d be holding you on a pedestal forever regardless of how low you’d knock me down? Well, you couldn’t be more mistaken.

The truth is, you just want another chance so you could use me again.