I Finally Realized We Were Never Gonna Be Anything More Than ‘A Thing’

You know, there are other people who had a rough childhood or divorced parents or a cheating partner or trust issues. Those people deserve to have someone trying for them as much as I tried for him because they are willing to work on their issues. And what about him? Well, he was all about the excuses.

See, if other people had someone to try for them as much as I was trying for him, they’d take it eagerly. But he just took it for granted and played me. He made me think that we were headed toward something bigger, when in reality we were just an undefined thing and nothing more than that. We were never gonna be anything more than that.

Well, I’m finally ready to see the things the way they truly are. He just doesn’t want me. It’s not me. I’m not the one. And I’m not sure any other will ever be seen as worthy of him since I, who gave him all of me and went the extra mile more than any sane person would, was not enough.