Don’t Think I Will Be Around Forever, Because I Will Walk Away

When I try to think about your feelings for me, I can never be sure of them.

I can never be sure whether you love me or you’ve just gotten used to me. I don’t know if you enjoy having someone always there for you and if you enjoy having someone loving you this much.

I don’t know if you are just using me as an ego booster and if my presence makes you feel better.

I don’t know if your emotions for me are real but you just decided there is no need to prove your love for me because I am not going anywhere.

Actually, I know that is exactly what you think—that I will stay by your side forever.

I know you are certain that there is nothing you can do which would make me turn my back on you. You think you can treat me however you feel and that I still won’t leave you.

I know you think you don’t have to put any effort into this relationship and that you don’t have to try around me, because I am not going anywhere.

I know you think my presence in your life is implied and that I don’t ever think of walking away from everything you’ve been putting me through.

You assume that I will put up with your mistreatment and bad behavior toward me forever. You are positive that I will continue being at the bottom of your priority list, that I will continue to beg for your love and attention and that I will forever be content with these crumbs you’ve been giving me.

Of course, you think this way because I allowed you to. I was the one who always forgave you for everything you’ve been doing and the one who always came back to you, despite all the humiliations you put me through.

So naturally, you’ve come to the conclusion that things will go on like this forever.

But let me tell you one thing—you couldn’t be more wrong.

Because no, I won’t stay by your side forever. And yes, I will walk away from you.

I know you probably think that these are all empty threats but trust me—I won’t put up with this madness any longer.

Because I know I deserve better and because I know you can’t give me what I want or need.

Because I know I deserve a love I won’t have to question.

I deserve to be someone’s priority and someone’s only option, instead of being someone’s last resort.

I deserve to have someone who will appreciate every second he spends with me, instead of taking me for granted.

I deserve to be with someone who will put an effort into our relationship, instead of someone who thinks his physical presence in the relationship is more than enough.

I deserve someone who will support me and be my best friend, instead of someone who only expects me to have his back.

I deserve someone who will stay by my side through thick and thin and someone who will want to share all the good and bad things life brings me, instead of someone who comes to me only when he is in trouble.

I deserve someone who will give me enough attention, instead of me having to ask or beg for it.

I deserve someone who will want to be with me, instead of me having to chase him all the time.

I deserve someone who will treat me like a princess—a man who will make me feel wanted and loved.

You are not that man, never were and never will be.

But that doesn’t mean a man like this doesn’t exist and it certainly doesn’t mean I won’t find him.

And when I do, I promise you that you’ll be sorry. I promise you that you’ll finally understand everything you’ve been doing to me and that you’ll regret every single moment of our relationship when you didn’t treat me right.

And you’ll try to make things better. You’ll try to win me back.

But trust me—it will be too late.